maliase 2.

started cleaning out my studio and almost cried for all the "wrong" reasons. not because i'll miss it. i've done a good job of distancing myself from it. but because i wasnt sad about leaving it. just an overwhelming feeling of sadness about the whole place and the whole thing. wondering... sometimes if i made the wrong decision but there are no "wrong" decisions ... it got me somewhere. i learned something. theres just this uneasy disdain for it, a..... "well, that was fun" in s satirical voice.
also, dont want to take my "goodbye forever (see you tomorrow)" note down; think that makes me the most somber.